I'm fine.

Hey world.

I'm extremely high today. But no one to share my joy.
C'mon. WHAT THE HELL DOES GOD WANTS FROM ME?!?!

Seriously, i think my life sucks now.
No life la. I wanna go clubbing with Hakim. SOON.
Too bad he's down with fever, damn!

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Sometimes i think its ridiculous.
Remember how i declared to the world JORDON was my best friend?
Now when i turn to him, he ignore me, say things like 'you bought this upon yourself'.
Well, if you chose to be this way, den FUCK YOU.

I understand now when guys says 'i love you' it just mean 'i'll stay with you now till i found someone better'
Because Jordon has proved to me this, the hard way.
Seriously, no one has ever lied to me this way before. Dont even bother calling, anymore.


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I've spending time with myself lately, i know this gonna sound extremely crazy, but i talked to myself.
HAHA!

I asked myself what i really want in life.

I asked why do i have to study so hard, i answer:

I dont want my dad to suffer when he's old, cause he did not let me suffer when i did not have the ability to support myself yet.


I asked myself why i have to be happy, i answer:

I dont have time to be sad cause life is too short, i might just die tmr.


I asked myself if i really needed love in life, i answer:

NO. Because i've learn that its not love i need, i just need someone to accompany me when i'm bored. Zhijie does a pretty good job at that. I love him, but i'd let him go and be my best friend instead.
If i let him go and he comes back, he's mine. If he doesn't come back, he was never meant to be mine.


I asked myself if i can survive w/o my friends, i answer:

NO. Because they are my greatest source of joy. Anthony, TC. TOLLYS, ahboy&co.


I asked myself how long i wanted to live, i answer:

As soon as i had sex, had kids, had love, had joy & had money, i'm really to die.
LOL.



Conclusion: My dad is my pillar of strength. Zhijie is my best listener. Anthony&Guanquan is my best advisers. TC. TOLLYS are my best cliques. My life aren't that bad after all.


I'm contented with my life already. Seriously.
When i learn not to ask for too much, i realize things are beautiful the way they are.


Thank you daddy, for bringing me to this world.
Thank you Zhijie, for being a wonderful guy.
Thank you Anthony&Guanquan, for being such great people genuinely caring when we seldom meet.
Thank you TC. TOLLYS, for having fun times together.

I can't find any other way to express my gratitude. I know everyone i mentioned here would read my blog, except for dad, so i hope you guys know although i dont always show it, i really do treasure what i have.


Alright, now everything has been said, i can commit suicide.
Should i jump from my house or
should i run out to the road or
maybe i should slit my wrist or
drink detergent???


HAHA! GOTCHA!
How would i ever do awful things to myself?
My dad taught me that even life is out to get the worst out of you, fight back and make the best out of yourself.
He's an living example. He did fought, he won. So i believe i can do it too.


Enough of my sudden-sad-sudden-joy life, i'll be back soon with my normal post.
Please date me out, anyone. I'm very very free next week.
I can't stand to be alone at home facing the com for hours. HAHA.



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Replies to tags;

Shiwei- Not gonna post it alr la, lose motivation. Also over alr. HAHA.

Rebecca- Are you kidding me? I think i've not been at Accounts examination room for a year alr. HAHA!

Turn back time.

The best thing that had happened to me, was you.



Whatever happens, i love you.
You know i mean it.

You want space, i give you space.
You want time, i give you time.

All i want from you was your care&concern, am i asking too much?
You're making me go crazy. All crazy about you.


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Replies to tags;

Karen- Aiya, you say only la. That time when you & your bf was facing th same problem i told you th same thing you refused to listen. Now you're lecturing me?! HAHA.
I understands how you feel now la. Anw, i havent heard your voice for centuries alr!

Rebecca- Okay, i will! :D
Yeah, i saw it already. HAHA.

Guanquan- Yes i know. Study hard for n lvl!!!

Roy- Yes, i'll be happy. Thanks for your concern.

Holding on.

Hey world.

I'm back from dinner at Woodlands. Had really really nice soup. But my appetite wasnt that good.
I wanna eat. I forced myself, but i almost vomited.


Such a bas week for me;

- I had a swollen eye, i rubbed them too hard, now they're hurting me too.
- My period came earlier, i threw trantrum at him.
- As a result, i worsen our r/s.
- I'm really guilty, but he want kit kat.
- I'm having prelims tomorrow and i'm not fully prepared.


I might sound very sad now. Its ok, who'll be happy when he/she is broken & abandon?
Whatever it is, i'll still wipe away those tears and put a smile back to my face.
Because i'm learning to stand up on my own, i'll be strong when he's back.


I know its not gonna be easy.
I've never fallen so deep into love before. In fact, i wasnt intending to.
Right before we even started, i was afraid of this.
He assured me, we'll be together for a long long time.

I took about 1 or 2 month to convince myself, to give myself a chance to love again.
I was happy, because he clicked so well with my family and friends.
My relatives liked him as much as i do.
My dad hatred for him grew lesser and started to like him when he saw how well we managed our r/s,
like balancing school works and dating.

I dont even know how to break th news to my dad today.
I just pray and hope everything will be fine and be back like before so my dad dont have to worry about me.


This is really hurting. You guys have no idea how much or zhijie mean to me.
He wasnt the sweetest bf i've had but he was the one i wanted.
He made me cry, yes. But he made me so happy and comfortable when i'm around him.

Perhaps i'm still inexperienced.
Perhaps, he might really need time to think what is the best for himself, and hopefully think of me too.
I'll give him time as i promised. His pool competition is important to him as well as his CA2.
When it's over, i hope he'll still see me waiting for him and we'll be how we used to be.

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Thank you so much Guanquan and Eric. I dont know where the hell has Anthony Tan Jia Feng gone to.
Guanquan was the first to know, although i was such an asshole for forgetting his bday, he still listened when i poured my hearts out to him. Thank you thank you thank you! You're the best lil bro.


I'm not gonna say much about what happened exactly, yet.
Meanwhile i'll tell you guys how HOT i've became ok?
HAHA.

Nidda sleep now.
I need to take this issue off my mind temporarily, i need to focus on my prelim.
Will be back soon.



Replies to tags;

Shiwei- I also dont know why cannot. Now i can post be still abit screwed up.

Rebecca- I'm th unlucky one lor. Like fuck hor. HAHA.

Satome- Hi, who are you?

pb- Thank you. Just a correction, ITS NOT OVER yet. And may i know you are?

Biliang- Whatever. Thanks anw. I dont need roy. I need my bf.

Roy- I nvr dulan you. I just dont understand how come you guys so heartless one.
I'm not any other girls that'll forget about him. I'm still holding on to the r/s you get it?
He is not dumb yet. He is smart, because he is finally taking time to think what he really want in life.
But i'm not dumb for not letting him go. You wont let go anyone who'll make you happy right?



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I'm heavily broken and there's nothing I can do.
I trusted you to hold my heart, now fate is pulling me away from you.
Even if I leave you now, and it breaks my heart.
I can't give up, on this love.
Because everytime i'm giving up, i'm constantly reminded of what made me hold on for so long.
And the reason is you.

It's not over, yet.

To Sunshine.

I hope its not the absolute end yet.
Whatever it is, i miss you, your every kisses and every hugs, all the nights we've spent cuddling in bed waking up to th warmth of each other's arms.

Thank you for giving me this kind of love i never thought i'd do such crazy thing for.
I hope i have the time to learn, to be your best girlfriend i could ever be.

I believe everything will fall to place in time to come, i'll be strong.
I love you, my sunshine.



Love,
Your girlfriend.



To readers:

Dont ask anyone of us what happened between us. We're not over yet.
When we both have decided to move on or let go, i'll let you guys know.
Meanwhile, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE leave me and him alone.
I dont wanna talk about it.


Love,
Elaine.

what is wrong with my com. I can't postan entry. Sopathethic that i've to use my blog title as my blog entry. There goes my HTC magic. Fuck it.

Bangkok trip Part 2.

HAHA! The long awaited entry is finally up!

Lotsa pictures coming up so don't say i didnt warn you.

Continuing, DAY, er, forgot which day alr la. LOL!

Hotel room.

Oh, did i mention i was sleeping in fear for th 1st night?

Firstly, hotel always spells SPOOKY for me.

Secondly, my bed is directly opposite the mirror.

You know they say its a bad position cause your soul gets up to wander around at night and when its time for you to be awake, your soul wil go back.

But because of the mirror, there are two of me, meaning (1) The real me, (2) My reflection

It is said that your soul can't figure out which is the real you and if it goes back to the body in the mirror, DAMN. I'm dead, forever. HAHA!

But after 1st night i figured out that my soul wouldnt be so stupid so i didnt give a damn and yeah, i slept well for the 4 consecutive nights.

Th star in this photo: My YSL handbag. Okay, its not mine. It's my mum's. LOL!

Th star in this photo: ORANGE TAXI!!!!!!!!!

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Th star in this photo: ELAINE.

Huh what? Kaiying? WHERE?! LOLOLOL.

Anyway, my mum's friends had a female dog which gave birth to these two hyperactive babies.

The third one died. Sad, but yeah, they doesn't look like they're baby. LOL!

A fresh new day.

Went to Chatukchak.

You see ah, super light dress + ponytail + sandals.

But i was still sweating like mad. I swear it's hotter than Sg.

Lesson learnt. Th nxt time i go there, i'm gonna bring an electric fan.

Bet you havent seen fried quail egg before, have you?

Its yolk is so cute! I think i can pour the whole bowl down my throat. HAHA.

Anyway the bowl is a size of those dessert stalls kind of bowl.

After a hot day at Chatuchak, we went back to hotel for a swim.

Super shiok. But they doesn't wash their pool with chlorine. Whatever, i didnt die anyway.

HA!

Okay, get ready for the super unglam picture of me.

You'll never get to see me like this, always.

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1min. 1 pathetic min for you to start laughing at my hideous face, ugly leg pose and unglam way of undressing myself.

Okay, your 1min is up.

Stop laughing already.

But its okay you know, cause i believe i'm still hot.

You see!

Oh, and plus my orange bikini so that makes me ultra hot in this picture.

DAY dont know what again, we went MBK.

Main purpose is to get Zhijie's Mum fav durian chip. MBK's fashion retail outlet are too ex for me to look around. When i say ex, it is = to sg pricing.

I missed my bf badly when i was there, so i tried dialing me but to no avail.

SO i said: I'm not gonna leave this phone booth till i hear his voice! I DONT CARE!

But Ky and i decided to talk to each other instead. Per call = 0.021 cents.

No way, ain't gonna leave till i hear sunshine's voice!

I know my hair sucks here la. HAH.

This is interesting! They warn you that its a cockroach area. I think they don't know the spelling for cockroach so they chose to draw it instead. HAHA!

I tell you this is a fucking big dog. I kneel down to take pictures with him and he moved.

Of course i was startled My facial expression explains it all.

After awhile when he'd fallen asleep, we took pictures again.

This time i distant myself further away from him.

Oh ya, the main purpose is to let you see that this dog wears sunglasses.

Had dinner with my cousin in th night.

Do we look like twins?

Bored in hotel room. HAHA!

See the reflection of my bed? LOL.

When you have two girls sharing a dressing table, they make a mess and leave it untidy. HAHA!

I cute or she cute?

Obviously i'm cute! But ky, you're adorable la! :D

She's obsessed with her floral bangle.

Sg sells it at $6 per bangle.

She got 5 bangle at only $4.20. WTH?

Checking out and leaving for Sg already.

I keep lol at this. I looked like a housefly.

At airport.

I forgot what old man was telling me. But dont you think he looked like 'ah gua' with his hand sign? HAHA!

Me and my twin. Ignore the one in grey.

HAHA!

Okay. That's all.

I'll be back with Bangkok trip season 2 during DEC. Ha!

Replies to tags;

Jervis- Yes! TC. TOLLY's outing soon! First stop comfirm sentosa.

Reb can play her stupid skyride.(Tell her play at lot1 there she dont want.)

Ky can ride her bicycle. ALONE.

I can haolian my bikini.

HAHA!

Shiwei- I know, it've been years...and i still WONT RELINK YOU! HAHAHAHAHA.

BEG ME LA! BEG ME!

Yiqian- I didnt forget your bday present on purpose ma. DEN YOU WANT YOUR PRESENT ANOT? Anw now is 16 july. so many months since your bday past. So since its over den dont need give?

Rebecca- HAHA. You can finally play your stupid rides la. Lot1 also have what! I think more fun lor. HAHA! Okay la. MeeSuaHead sucks.

Guanquan- WHAT?! Den you can run away with my 2k la! I dont care la, i'm gonna start to charge you interest already. HAHA! Kidding.

Eh, stop ah. Dont say, i feel guilty.

Fun loving facts.

I know i'm supposed to post Bangkok trip part 2. But i've got a reasonable and acceptable reason for it.

The pictures containing most of our pictures are in my Dad's camera and he's not home.

So, i guess you guys gonna wait again.

LOL!

I still have to blog about the new HTC Magic. No choice lor, Nuffnang is so good to me, of course i must be good and help them advertise + i can benefit from it too.

(1) Train my thinking skills.

(2) Improve on vocab and grammar.

(3) Get a HTC for free if i done it well.

Yes, ever since the existence of Nuffnang, i do believe that money would eventually fall from the sky. Okay la, not that easy. You still have to reap what you sow.

Anyway, the previous, previous's week(i forgot when but it was still during school holidays), i was telling Zhijie about facts about guys and asking him if they were true cause so are quite nice but yet deceiving.

Let me share it with you.

1.Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about

-My boyfriend says this is true. So sweet!

Like what i always say; you can flirt any girls you want because eventually i'm the only who matters to you.

.3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

-This is true. He still remember me telling him i dont like chatting on the phone. And when i told him that, we were not together yet. I am surprised(secretly happy) that he still remembers it when he told me last month. HAHA!

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

-SO not true lor. My bf says i'm as hot as i claim. I disagree but he stills say it. Bastard.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs.

-No he don't. He always laugh at me whenever i say i have small boobies.

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

Cool anot? I never knew guys's feelings were as sensitive as ours.

I'll take note and start being a nice & sweet gf from today. Wait, i'm alr a nice & sweet gf. I'll start being NICER and SWEETER. HAHA!

Tags will be replied tonight ya?

Going swimming yeah! Bye Babies!

I hate MOLE. Especially those with 'taugay'

Hello yellow!

I've been busy. Dont ask me what, i am totally clueless too.

Its just that a day doesnt seems like it has 24hours to me. I guess i need to be more organized and have better time management so as to study diligently now that prelims are only 2 weeks away.

My mind doesnt function well enough these days. All i can think of its plans with friends out to have fun.

Sometimes i dont even remember that so and so ask me out to study together. HAHA!

Speaking about fun, i'm going to catch Ice Age 3 this friday with my beloved Winne!

Confirm fun one. I know this gonna sound extremely sua gu, but i've to admit for th 16yrs, 7months, 14days, 6hrs, 21mins and i dont know how many seconds of my life;

i've not seen a 3D movie before.

1min. 1 min for you to start laughing at me. Okay, you have 52secs left.

Ha! Whatever! That explains my excitement!

Can't wait can't wait can't wait!!!

Okay, digress, i've been participating actively in the topic 'MOLE' with my ladies, and MANY OTHERS who are also anti-mole.

Yes, almost everyone hate mole. Especially moles with 'taugay'. Fyi, 'taugay' = hair that grows from th mole.

Eg. Those Chee Koh Pek in kopitiam with 1 big fat mole and few strands of hair from that mole and uses his finger to twist and twist that few strands of bloody hair.

That's already disgusting. Imagine a girl doing that. I can totally imagine that. Not with 1 mole though, maybe with 5 moles.

Oh, anyway we've a game called 'MOLE', taught by Shiwei, loved by all.

We need to teach Kangqi the game so the 8 of us can play together.

Oh! We can play it tgt when we're at Sentosa!!!

C'mon ladies, tell me i'm brilliant. HAHA!

Okay, for those who have moles, i dont have anything against you.

But if you have 5 moles and strand of hair coming out of that fat mole, yes i have something against you.

I guess i'm too obvious about who i'm talking about? HAHA.

In case you're wondering about who you are and would prefer me telling you i hate you to your face instead of blogging, kindly tell me.

I'll be galdly to tell you in your face i hate you.

Love,

Elaine.

p/s: I remember i still owe Yiqian and Guanquan birthday present.

Note to self: Buy wrapping paper and come back tonight to post Bangkok trip part 2.

Replies to tags;

Guanquan- I said my ultra hot bikini cost only 3bucks la dey! Not everything la dey! I still need that 2k. HAHA!

Shiqi- No doubt i had a nice shopping trip. Dont tell me anything. DONT.

Jer- Change of plan. Go sentosa first, probably within this month i guess? Then we'll discuss again later about th WWW, cause we were saying we might just go and play at Genting instead.

Rebecca- Dont worry my baby! I'll be there for you, just like how the ants were there for us, no matter rain or shine. HAHA! I wont use you nor will i lie to you.

Bangkok trip Part 1.

Okay, here are the pictures while i'm at Bangkok.

DAY 1

On th plane with old man.

Taiwan girl. Her virgin ride. HAHA!

Best lunch served!

Except the Orange juice tasted like shit when i drank it after eating Vanilla ice cream.

After we touched down, went straight to hotel place our stuffs and waited for friends to pick us up at Hotel lobby.

Helping old man top up Thai sim card. He's so noob. HAHAHAHA!

We went somewhere with lots of seafood.

Dig this! I ate durians! HAHA.

I dont know who and why the person took this. LOL.

That piece of shit is so (*&%^$#%^&*! I think i only took few bites den held on to it throughout the night.

DAY 2

Busy streets. Fresh air..NOT!

Taiwan girl bought mask wherever she went to 'protect' herself against the badly polluted air.

Serious!

So anw, my fav mall! Completed walking the whole mall this time.

Check out my bags. I swear i was taking more than a dozen of bags.

Fucking cheap. Believe me.

All that i bought.

Total of 8 tees, 4dress, 3 watches, 2pouches, ?? accessories and my ORANGE BIKINI which i got for only 60baht. Let me help you with the calculations. It was only.. 3bucks!

Tell me Orange is hot, bikini is hotter. So that makes Orange bikini ultra hot!

No more those common 'little miss tees'. I've got th unique and authentic Mr men!

Friends bought us out for dinner again. This was my fav! Tawandang German Brewery.

The largest dinning place i've ever seen.

Take this(picture below) and multiply it by 10. That's the size.

Entertainment while you enjoy your meal!

And then DJs spin the record, everyone got up and shake!

Okay, i'll be back with Part 2&3 asap.

Quarantined doesn't mean stay at home shake leg enjoy.

I've still got assignments mailed to my email! So i'll post as soon as i'm free.

Stay tune!

Replies to tags;

Jervis- Let's go play, yes! Shall we go WWW and kbkp ppl again? HAHA!

Kass- The steamboat got nicer than the one we used to go?

Shiwei- HAHA! Sunday swine-flu-free day! HAHA!

Yiqian- Call me bangs girl lor. MEESUAHEAD! Lol. So wanna go back school to disturb you. Yeah, i bought Thailand Meesua back for you.

Guanquan- Sorry you're not allowed to do that. You'll take tht 2k and sponsor my shopping trip at Thailand! HAHA!

Biliang- If i really get infected, i make sure you're the first person i pass it to. HAHA.

Rebecca- Ya la. Sunday so free. You all so jiao la! Everyone reply was 'sunday wont get swine flu' LOL! Okay la, i miss you. And our ants! HAHA.

Winnie- Yeap, no swine! HAHA. Meet up when you're free okay! Present for you! :D