I've been so lost for these few weeks, now i finally found myself and managed to keep up the same pace as my fellow classmates academically. I think i'm a smart ass, considering the 2 weeks of school i've skipped and i can still 'ketchup' with them.
SO anyway, Adam Khoo came over my school for motivation workshop few days back and i think its really meaningful. I can imagine Kangqi's reaction upon seeing this. HA!
But what really had me thinking and really knock me in to senses is that they made/forced us to recall how we've taken our parents for granted and the way we treated them with zero respect.
I really can't bring myself to imagine that one day i wanted to scold my dad again for cleaning up my room for no reason causing me to search high and low for a pathetic lotion then i realised he was not at home.
I glanced at the clock and it showed 11pm. I then thought to myself that dad was usually home by 10pm. I walked over to the phone to ring my dad and the phone rang just when i wanted to dial dad's handphone.
It was the hospital. Dad met with a fatal accident and is seriously injured.
Of course i rushed down and saw him lying on the bed, with tubes stucking out from his nose, his mouth and hand. I broke down upon the sight and begged him to stay, i begged him not to leave me alone, i beg him not to be strong, i beg him not to DIE.
All he did was wipe my tears away and cupped my face with his wrinkled hands i've never noticed before because i was always constantly pushing him away and keeping a distance just because i thought he was irritating.
Suddenly a pang of regret shot through me and flowed through every part of my body withtin the speed of light.
I regretted not making him proud by getting good grades, i regretted not being there for him when he was alone at home, i regretted not eating at the same table with him during meals because i thought chatting on msn with friends was more important, i regretted scolding him for cleaning my room without my consent and i regretted chiding him for misplacing my stuffs everytime he packed my room.
"Its ok my child, its ok." He said in soft, weak voice.
"I'm sorry dad, i apologise for everytime i've done to make you feel sad, and i apologise for things i've never done to make you feel proud or happy." I cried out.
"Its alright darling, daddy loves you." He comforted me.
"No dad, NO! Its definetly not alright! Please dont die, dont leave me! Please..."
Somehow my dad felt that its time he should go, his hand that was cupping my cheek fell to the side of the bed and his face that i saw this time was fatigue, lost and lonely instead of what i always thought i saw, irrtating, annoying and demanding.
Now that i've realised and saw the whole picture, it was too late. Dad wouldnt be back, thing i've done to him when he was alive couldnt be undone.
Dad's love required nothing in return, which i believe, is the gratest love of all.
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Ok, you're suppsoed to be crying now, or at least feel what i'm trying to put across and start treating your parents in a nicer way cause i reckon you wouldnt want to treaure your parents only when they are at the brink of death ya?
Ok, let me digress. I am a genius. Wahahahaha.
Jerald Lie Yan what(i forgot the last name), the main point is he is an interim chemistry teacher of mine who loves me very very much because he keeps dating me out everyday right after school. Date with him is extremely boring cause we spent every second discussing on chemical calculations. You tell me boring anot? Where got guys bring their date outside conference room to do calculations?! HAHA!
And the reason why i am a genius is because...
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...I SAY SO.
Haha!
I'm gonna do more practise on chemical calculation cause Jerald just text me to arrange another date tomorrow to show him i truly comprehend every steps.
SO, bye!
Please miss me even if you dont feel like to. You HAVE to.
Wahahahaha.
Replies to tags;
Rebecca- I think Edward sucks. Jacob is so much cooler, and...blacker. HAHA!
Cheryl- Yes, i'll link you asap!
Shiwei- I really give you chance la, cause i'm kind, loving, caring etc.
Winnie- Yeah i'm back!
Isabella- Its no longer dead! HAHA.
