woke up & had buddha jump over tha wall as bread fast,
i slept till 4 plus went ky came over to my hse.
we talked alot
& she said my eyes were so small,
stupid wang ba dan !
made me cry & made my eyes look smaller,
its so small already !
& after tat me & ky were having a girls talk
& i've made up my mind who to choose.
i've recovered.
fast huhs ?
told you i'm strong & brave !
i didnt cry whem i listen to tha song.
i managed to hold back my tears.
today it was ky turn to cry.
she keep telling me she is so scared.
SCARED WHAT ?? WHAT ??
till nao, i dont know she scared what.
but i know it is linked to B**
i was confused who to choose,
so i did a stupid thing.
i asked my cousin to vote. A = him B = *ahems.
& *ahems won tha vote.
LOLS !
stupid kass, she choose A at first,
after knowing A is him & not *ahems,
she changed her vote.
ROARS HER !
after tat i ate ice-cream & drank 2 bottles of yakult,
& my daddy said i will get sick easily.
after tat i walked ky to tha carpark cors she scared.
after tat i went up the rooftop
& i saw stars.
i stayed there awhile
& went home after tat.
stupid oscar lim jiajun !
he broke my Japanese doll which ah seng korkor
bought for me when he went to japan for his honeymoon.
ROARS HIM !
my daddy asked me to sweep it away
& i was looking at tha broken pieces,
ah seng korkor told me,
if dont bear den dont throw away la ! glue it back.
his wife said,
its not the same anymore,
it will have crack line.
it will stay there forever,
not like last time, so perfect.
& i was like keep thinking of what she said.
anw, i sweep & threw it away.
OH MY TIAN !
it hurts, my baobei doll !
haiiyo.

i shouldn't have any tears from the start.
i didn't know how to control my feelings at all.
I'm always tat girl whose getting hurt.
nobodys understand me well.
Infact i dont know myself well too.
I'm missing everyone right now.
but who will be by my side ?
seriously, i need a guy by my side whenever i need him.
a guy who dotes on me; to be the apples of his eyes.
just for his smile,
I'm willing to sacrifice anything just for him
I've hid you in the bottom of my heart.
seriously, i need you by my side each & every moment.
I'm just hoping for a dream to come true.
whether it might be possible between us,
it all depends on a word:
"FATE".